Who am I

“Wisdom tells me I am nothing. Love tells me I am everything. Between the two my life flows.”

Nisargadatta Maharaj

Who am I? I realized that there is no answer to this most profound existential question when we look from the absolute point of view. Words wouldn’t be sufficient enough to contain the totality of the answer due to our limited minds and language.
But from the relative point of view, all I can say is that, in this life I come to be a wanderer through to the ground of Being. I am a dedicated student of my true nature that opens up only in the direct experience of the moments. I am devoted to intuitively abiding in ‘I am’ consciousness. And I investigate how to embody my insights out in the world by surrendering to the relative life and living as much as possible for the benefit of all beings that is to me one of the highest soulful value in life.

I love and I am loved back. Sometimes I fail. Sometimes I can not be kind to myself and cannot be fully loving to those who sometimes live with the difficult task of loving me or the other. I sometimes fear, fear to death. And I am learning. I am learning through Being. I am knowing through Being as the Being itself.

I’ve proceeded at the body of the earth, seen huge mountains, walked in glorious valleys, swam in the strong waves of the ocean, slept in forests, bathed in the most healing rivers. Surrounded by many living beings, trees, plants and animals I enjoyed my each breath in the purity of nature.
I’ve witnessed many diversed cultures, traditions, opened myself fully to colors, tastes, smells, sounds, met lots and lots of people, listened to many inspirational stories, sang with the people, laughed with them, cried with them.
I’ve met with the wisdom in different traditions, come across profound teachings at monasteries, ashrams or mystical schools, be guided by gurus, teachers, saints and sages and be embraced and blessed by the light of enlightened ones.
I’ve marched on in the path of love, day and night, from one place to another, seeking for the reality. Every step took me closer to my root, to my real being. My life and my outlook on life has totally changed in every aspect. Eventually I stopped seeking because I realized that I’m home already. What a relief this is, what a revolution, what a freedom.

Everything is impermenant in this life. Yet, this life is the only gateway to the silent and concrete backdrop of all experience that is always and already innate in every moment of being. Everything comes and goes but what is it that always remains? When we intuitively sense into this background, what is it there that is quite extraordinary? Who am I?

“Let come what comes, let go what goes. See what remains.”

Ramana Maharshi

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