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You are the drop in the ocean.

And you are the entire ocean in a drop.

The essence is the same.

This analogy is inspired from a quote of the great mystic Rumi. Here Rumi discusses the non-duality of everything that exists. In other words, fundamentally everything in the universe functions from the same conscious energy.
The drop stands for the individual mind. The ocean symbolizes the reality, the nameless formless conscious existence that is one and the same in all forms. When we perceive ourselves as a seperate entity, we experience ourselves as the drop. But through meditation, self-inquiry or any number of experiences in which one’s identity (ego) collapses, we are left with the overwhelming sense that there is one consciousness to all that exists (the ocean). The individual becomes conscious of her/himself as the reality. And also the reality becomes conscious of itself through the individual.

This is a realization that can only come from direct experience. Without tasting it, one cannot grasp how it tastes like. One has to forget about understanding it and forget about trying to make all things one. The root of all existence is already a harmonious consciousness. One just has to realize this.
First we need to be interested and have a yearning to recognize our true and mysterious Self. It is the spiritual instinct that moves us in this direction. It can not be taught but it is revealed through the intuitive openness to all experience. In spirituality this is fundamental. If this is vibrant enough through the spiritual instinct moving in you, then you will be interested in this most profound teaching.

My heart has always been the primary guide. The Guru is within, to guide me to look through the eyes of the reality and let the reality become conscious through me. I am in a dance inbetween the relative (the drop) and the absolute (the ocean) that are in fact one and the same. This is an endless learning. And I am a dedicated student, a devoted wanderer on this path.
My story is a journey of dissolving into the boundless ocean as a drop. If this resonates with you, you are more than welcome into my story in these pages.

“Wisdom tells me I am nothing. Love tells me I am everything. Between the two my life flows.”

Nisargadatta Maharaj

Who am I? I realized that there is no answer to this most profound existential question when we look from the absolute point of view. Words wouldn’t be sufficient enough to contain the totality of the answer due to our limited minds and language.
But from the relative point of view, all I can say is that, in this life I come to be a wanderer through to the ground of Being. I am a dedicated student of my true nature that opens up only in the direct experience of the moments. I am devoted to intuitively abiding in ‘I am’ consciousness. And I investigate how to embody my insights out in the world by surrendering to the relative life and living as much as possible for the benefit of all beings that is to me one of the highest soulful value in life.

I love and I am loved back. Sometimes I fail. Sometimes I can not be kind to myself and cannot be fully loving to those who sometimes live with the difficult task of loving me or the other. I sometimes fear, fear to death. And I am learning. I am learning through Being. I am knowing through Being as the Being itself.

I’ve proceeded at the body of the earth, seen huge mountains, walked in glorious valleys, swam in the strong waves of the ocean, slept in forests, bathed in the most healing rivers. Surrounded by many living beings, trees, plants and animals I enjoyed my each breath in the purity of nature.
I’ve witnessed many diversed cultures, traditions, opened myself fully to colors, tastes, smells, sounds, met lots and lots of people, listened to many inspirational stories, sang with the people, laughed with them, cried with them.
I’ve met with the wisdom in different traditions, come across profound teachings at monasteries, ashrams or mystical schools, be guided by gurus, teachers, saints and sages and be embraced and blessed by the light of enlightened ones.
I’ve marched on in the path of love, day and night, from one place to another, seeking for the reality. Every step took me closer to my root, to my real being. My life and my outlook on life has totally changed in every aspect. Eventually I stopped seeking because I realized that I’m home already. What a relief this is, what a revolution, what a freedom.

Everything is impermenant in this life. Yet, this life is the only gateway to the silent and concrete backdrop of all experience that is always and already innate in every moment of being. Everything comes and goes but what is it that always remains? When we intuitively sense into this background, what is it there that is quite extraordinary? Who am I?

“Let come what comes, let go what goes. See what remains.”

Ramana Maharshi

My gratitude and love is immense and beyond words for;

My Root Guru Ramana Maharshi, Mount Arunachala, Nisargadatta Maharaj, Buddha, Farid ud-Din Attar, Hafiz, Adyashanti, Cesar Teruel, Venerable Namgyel, Lama Yeshe, all the saints, sages and pirs, visible and invisible enlightened beings that came into my path so far,

All my loved ones who passed away from this life, all my ancestors including my parents,

All the dedicated people who walk the path of love, who take compassion and wisdom as their life orienting principle,

And the graceful mother nature.

I am embraced and blessed by their light. Without them I couldn’t be able to know who I really am.